I finally painted my new sketchbook cover after staring at the inspiration doodle since break started...

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Current Mood: drained

BACK AT COLLEGE
FLIGHT WASN'T TOO PLEASANT BUT DORM ROOM IS EXACTLY HOW I LEFT IT
AND WARM
ROOMIE ISN'T HERE YET (OFCOURSE)

READY FOR THE NEW QUARTER
AND TO SIT AND WAIT FOR MASS EFFECT 2 TO COME OUT
HNNNNNNNNGGGH




also: Have I mentioned that I got a giant new beautiful blackandred laptop for christmas. It's name is Nihilus because I am a hopeless bioware fangirl. Couldn't find the software for my oldold scanner that I have here. So either I find it online somehow or all doodles will now appear in photograph form :I

Tags: irl, school
Current Mood: exhausted

GOING BACK TO COLLEGE
BBL

Tags: irl

For New Year's I wished on a star.
Cliche and more than likely completely useless
But I went outside
Picked the brightest one
And wished with everything in me.

Though I laughed with skepticism
Though I mumbled to myself and rolled my eyes
Something in me still hopes
Still waits.

I'll wait for you until it's impossible to wait any longer.



On a plus side, I had a wonderful new year's party with wonderful friends.

Completely unrelated comes the issue that will haunt my week, in which I will be more than likely having to deal with a great amount of my fears. I'll be going to Barstow on Wednesday and coming back Friday. Once again my grandmother is in the hospital, and everyone seems hushed and skeptic about how long she has. So I will be more than likely saying goodbye to her, coming to terms with this, and that will be hard for me. For years I've been dreading the deterioration of her health. For years I have been fearing another confrontation with my father. He will know that I'm coming. More than likely my /step/ grandmother will try to somehow make us 'bond.' This is of course shoving years of abandonment and rejection right into my face. But I realized that I can't let him get to me. I have to grow a pair, for the lack of better words, because this is a test. This an expectation of how strong I need to be to get through this. I'm not the shy and awkward little girl he made me out to be. He needs to see that I'm a woman now. He needs to see that my life would be better without him in it.

No matter how much I try to psyche myself out for this, though, it's not going to be easy, or smooth. I'm not ready, but at the same time, I don't think I'm ever going to be.

Current Mood: blank

Changes to this Journal

1. Weekly update with a public sketch/wip/something on DA. (Probably on Sunday because I like to copy hungryspider.
2. This will also be my "official" blog for any press releases and shit like that. ;D
3. Will still use for personal reasons, but those entries will be friedslocked.
4. Need more artist LJers to be friends with. Any ideas/comms I can look into?

2010 Resolutions (in no particular order)

1. Continue to work on getting the type of body I want.
2. Write Mad World (don't think about it! just do it!)
3. Eliminate bad feelings, become more confident, gain financial independence
4. Finish what I start/plan (especially regarding art)
5. Make a badass transfer portfolio and get a nice scholarship!

Current Mood: okay

End of the year memeeee stolen from Catherine :D

( derp )

Current Mood: contemplative

Semi-flaunting new mood theeeme that isn't really new, I've actually been holding onto it for the past month or so xD;
Amatsuki is yey, tho I haven't been keeping up with it as of late ^^;

( Some moar... colored stuff again :D )

Dad's watching Star Warss.
iunno. He was watching Oprah earlier. I'm still pondering that BD



Happy Christmas Eve, duckies~

Tags: art, doodles, ocs
Current Mood: mellow
Current Music: Team Four Star - Twelve Days Of DBZAbridgedmas | Powered by Last.fm

Yes.



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Current Mood: sore